If you start to feel that guilt, just try thinking about it like this:
Mr.Jingles and Myrthe love mommy, love mommy being happy. Taking care of this miracle in everyway you can and knowing you are doing just that brings you happiness, brings you comfort, and that is reflected to them, they see this, knowing you are happy and doing what You need to do shows them the love and devotion you have for your family, strong and unbreakable, and they will love you for that always.
Your family and you are all in my prayers, everynight remember that